& wonder.

life after death? Rencarnation?

i always catch myself wondering the if, ands, & buts about it. as i am most certain that we all have. but recently i came across a random thought after watching a movie in which the person quotes "will my new heart love you as much as my old heart?".

so the question really is, as simple as he has said it to be, yet here i am wondering, is this so.
do the hearts of those who once had a different owner, still love the same person and things they once loved before. or could is love not really about the heart at all, only mind & body? what really is love when whats said to be the soul of love is the heart, if the heart is gone?

does the love fade away? mostlikly not, the idea of love, the thought of love for that person.

im at an odds end wondering about a possibly pointless question, a possibly pointless thing to wonder to begin with. yet here i am..getting lost inside my head.

i wonder all of this because it wasnt to long ago that someone i loved, who loved me back in a platonic way of some sort, passed away in a car accident. this said person, was an organ donor.
maybe his heart is somewhere else, and what was once in his heart that he loved, may somehow be connected to this newer body/person who now holds it. could this be possible? or just surreal.

im betting on surreal, but again, i like these sort of things, the things that you will never know.

maybe i will bump into this said person holding his heart and our eyes will meet and a flash of dejavu will appear before them. would they feel connected or out of place, or just continue walking by and never wonder the same thing i am wondering. have we met before? no, but their heart was once a heart that cared for me, so would they feel a connection with me through that? do they ever have things like this happen to them in general. where they come across something or someone that somehow they feel a bond to, when they have never even known or thought or heard of this said thing or person?

i think my goal is to meet the new person holding his heart. maybe they will be just as wonderful as person he was and more because of this said heart. maybe they became a new person because of it, maybe they know that there is a connection to something unknown that they can not control and they too themselves wonder.

how odd would it be to meet this person, the heartholder? too see the difference between the too, and realizing that the same exact heart in their body, controling their lives is the one that failed to save my friends. for me to know the person who had given that heart up so another life could live.

i guess i could go on for ages the questions and possibilities of this "wonder" but all there really is to do is wonder.. so ill leave it at that, and let others come up with their own ideas and imaginitive things that people tend to come up with, when left in the dark about the unknown things that revolve around us.


on another note, im glad i wonder things like this. it helps me feel more grounded when i do.
it amazes, amuses, and annoys me, but all in the same, its exciting, and without wonder or possibilites, what would we really have left to want to learn in life?

so wonder on about that.